i've been introduced to this word : karma , 3years ago.
in the past , i dontreally believe karma exist.

somehow , i've just witnessed one case of karma.
yes , thinking back , maybe he/she deserved what he/she has now.
but think of it , i quite pity he/she.
maybe its just one of the way he/she makes friends ?
but still ..
karma seems creepy to me now.

Current Mood: uncomfortable

This post is specially written for my friends...
I have too many to share in my heart,
but what i'm sharing to all of your are only the brim.
Its complicated when i have alot to say and i don't
want to express them out.

Just one tip, if there is no =D in any of my conversations
where i keep using facial expressions,
=) means i'm not happy, sadness inside my heart
=/ means i'm sad, please help me =)
=( means i'm really sad, please leave me alone, unless u can comfort me =/

Sry if i had used =) in any conversations (esp. winn@chalet and lw on msn)
these are actually cover ups for my sad emotions.
if u wanna know why, then talk to me about it =/

infinite number of sorries are never enough to get your full forgiveness.
but all i hope for is a chance to make up for it before its too late. =(

Some how you have managed to get under my skin
More than anyone ever did
And if every hole makes a scar
And every scar marks its place
Then I will never live freely without your trace

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Where the fuck are you?

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I am a wandering sad soul, messed up, being blur or blur-er than usual, watching myself tripping, stumbling all over the place. Such a joke.

Can't wait for 2009 to be over. Once I live through this,

I won't look back.

Suddenly though about Christmas even though it is like 1+weeks away.
Can't really express this excitement in words so im just going to use an expression ( >.< )!!
I hope SG will snow this year. ( i know its fat hope lars)
Cause i wanna spend such a special day with some ppl >.<

Yesterday went to play soccer in the morning!
Quite some time passed since the last time
we all gathered to play at the usual netball court.
Sry i was 1.5h late cause i overslept =x
But it was still worth going down and play.

Suddenly thought of ah hao.
I so feel like playing badminton with u during this holiday!
At least i hope to have a good dinner with u soon =D

Finally after so long, i went to cut my hair!
What hairstyle?? I can only say its as usual.
Don't think i will be changing it so soon,
maybe after i come out from army then i might consider >.<

wow, suddenly felt that im posting alot of random stuff here!
I just hope that readers do not get bored over what i say =x
oh well, tracking back, i still have lots of things to do!!!

Wants:
-Go Ice-skating + gd dinner with Rachelle and B1(bodyguard 1, not banana in pyjamas hor).
-Badminton!!
-play more SC with classmates =)
-blog more games during holidays.
-let ppl know more about "Earthling" and vise versa =D

Needs:
-CSC meeting on 15th dec
-Game Design (journal 2)
-CMSK3 (entrepreneurship report)
-CARC (report writing)
-Bnu (food intake record)
-iHCI (product report- nt so sure)
-spend more time with family
-go out with u on Christmas Eve( ^ ; ^ )

something inside me is missing.
I can only feel it with my heart.
But thats all that i can do with it.
I can't seem to see the problem.
This is so frustrating to me =/

"Have I told you about the tension of opposites? " he says.
The tension of opposites?

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.
"A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."

Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.
"A wrestling match. " He laughs. "Yes, you could describe life that way."
So which side wins, I ask?
"Which side wins? "

He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.
"Love wins. Love always wins."

- tuesdays with Morrie

/edited.

to my bodyguard 1 and 2 ! :D
since we're always busy , i think the best way to decide where to go is discussion through blogs and fbk. (:
i know where we can go already ! :D

#1 POOL ! :D though i am still quite noob , but can teach me ! wahaha. and i am not that noob , i got luck ! :x hehehe. bu yao xiao kan wo zhe ge luo xiao nu zi ~ :D
#2 iceskating ! (:
#3 movies + dinner [as usual.]
i got quite alot movies in mind to watch.
- feng yun 2
- mulan
- alvin and chip munks.
- newmoon !
- zombieland. [note : is m18 ! i think we need to sneak in. weibin and i SHOULD be can sneak in larh ~ but someoneeee. hmm. should we hide him in a bigg bag or sth ? ;D]
#4 buffet. but i will burst.
#5 eat around in singapore. HAHA !

so far i can only think of these. :/ any new suggestions ? singapore is soooo small. ):
leave comments / sms / chat online k ! :D misses !

Current Mood: bouncy

Flea today was awesome (y) albeit boring at times but we made profits anyway so it was all well hehe. Thanks to all who dropped by to visit, you know who you are :):* and Junwei and Brandon for helping us get dinner and Brandon for staying with us till the flea ended ^^. I'll try to upload photos asap!

So, it's over. Finally. Oh well I know the cycle is gona repeat itself and well, why am I not surprised hahaha. Nevertheless, IT'S TERM BREAK, SUCKERS. The next few days will see me busy with work and gotta make some time to for meetup sessions and some christmas shopping whoo hooooooo, exactly 2 more weeks!

Oh and 3 projects during 2 weeks term break is a major turn off. Ew.

This is a rather short post whatever I am so sleepy, only slept an hr last night! Or this morning to be exact hahaha okay bye *blows kisses

Fuck, I hates the rate im updating my livejournal.

I wonder, do I really belong to part of it?
They are better than me in almost everything .
So many years, our friendship should be strong?

But why is it even after so many years, we still have moments of awkward silence. i swear i fucking hate this awkward silence. I mean, we are friends. Not just friends, but true close friends. Numerous incidents can prove that la. These few days, I've been thinking of all this question marks exisiting since idk when.

maybe its because im over possesive . other than that reason i really cant think of any other reasons to defend myself. and mind you, i freaking dont like this. it feels like some kind of barrier. im tired of convincing myself that things would be alright because things always end up like shit in the end.

I FEEL SO OFF NOW. The sense of inferiorty just knocked on my door again. And this time, it brought along the sense of not belonging. They are everything and im almost nothing. They are strong in all aspects, and im just nice lousy in almost everything. They have the looks, the brains, the mind but im just a ugly looking guy with no brains and a fucking wrong mindset.

"Do not treat your friends too well, cause they will only end up to take it for granted"
-Ronalds Naddal

So true.

I guess, I will change, for the worse that is.
Maybe, being the cold blooded guy that everyone hates will be the solutions to my problem .

being sick shucks big time.
running a fever shucks even more.
argh.
):

Current Mood: drained

I am sick of studying. Can i have to permission to stop studying & start slacking? Biology is so crappy.

Current Mood: annoyed